About Me

Hi, let me just start off with the basics. My name is Julia and I am nineteen years old, going on twenty in February. I live in NJ… yes, I am a proud born and raised Jersey girl. Just to put this out there, the show “Jersey Shore” gives all true Jersey guy/girls a bad name. No one from the shore, actually acts like that; we are chill surfer/skater kids and hate the Guidos that come down here and think they are the shit. Anyway, back to me; I have two loving parents and four very different siblings, I am the second youngest. I love reading, which is one of very few things that make me truly happy; books allow me to escape the reality that is my life for a few hours at a time. I do not trust many people mostly due to the fact that my family has gone through a series of unfortunate events over the past couple of years, and also that every guy I have been with have stabbed me in the back one way or another. So let me try explain my life up to this moment – footnote version.

I went to a extremely small high school (thirty students in my graduating class small)  focusing on math and science. It was a good experience for me educational, but it was very social constricting. So after four years of busting my ass, I did what was expected of me… I went to college and majored in Biology with a concentration in Marine and Environmental; it was what I thought I wanted to do since I was in middle school. Along the way, (January 21) I met my true first boyfriend and made some wrong friends, and my mood and attitude started spiraling down. So after a semester and a half in a school that was a half hour away from my house, and for a few other personal reasons, I decided to drop out and return to my home.To keep myself busy I started working for my sister as a personal assitant/secretary at her acupuncture center. However, after a few months business became scarce and she could no longer afford to have me help. So, I looked everywhere for another job, and in mid-August my boyfriend at the time, suggested applying to CVS/pharmacy downt he street from his house; I applied and got the job. Since then, being December now, my life has been far from perfect: my boyfriend broke up with me in late August,  my sister returned from rehab not long afterwards, I made enormous mistakes in September in order to try to get over my ex-boyfriend, I lost a lot of my friends… and at time I feel completely alone in the world.

Back in September, I started a blog on this site detailing my life and how I was trying to get it back on track, but after a few months of posting I got lazy and simply stopped updating the world on my life. Recently, I decided to start anew and create a new blog… with a new purpose. Yes, I will still be updating everyone on simply my life, but unlike my last blog, I will no longer be searching for certain aspects of my life, most because I have figured out a few things in the last couple of months. One, I am going back to school, Ocean County College, to become a high school English teacher. I don’t know when I figured out that that is what I would like to do with my life, it just hit me one day when I was talking to my oldest sister about my future and everything just fell into place. Now, if you have read my previous blog at all you would know the many difficulties I have had with guys, after my boyfriend and I broke up. At the moment, I am pretty sure that I want a relationship, but that is still up in the air.

Well, that is pretty much it for my life up to this moment. This point of this blog is for me to be able to vent my frustrations, distress, and difficulties that run through my head on a day to day basis. Writing allows to completely release my feelings and work them out; so you ask, why don’t I just write in a diary? Well, there are a variety of reasons. One, I am very anal about writing in a diary; if the writing is sloppy, I rip out the page; I have to write in pen, so if I make a type-o, I rip out the page. Therefore, seeing I am not all for destroying a diary in order to write in it, I type instead. Also, it gives a sense of relief that maybe, perhaps, someone out there is reading this everyday… reading about my life, my struggles, my grief, even my happiness, and hoping for me… hoping that my life will turn out well… maybe someone can relate me and write to me about how I should deal with a certain situation. I like feedback, so feel free… just keep it decent, please.

Thanks for being interested in my blog, I hope you keep thinking that.