Every once in a while, late at night, I find myself unable to sleep. Mostly because of the thoughts in my head… I don’t usually know what I am thinking about because there is so much running through my mind. I can’t pick a single thought out of the jumbled mess. And so, these array of thoughts lead me to a point where I can’t feel anything… my mind is so clouded that I become very emotionally numb. I found out, a few weeks ago, that I get a sense of release and clarity if I write. I do not know what or why I write certain things… I try not to. The feeling of almost subconscious writing allows me to work out some of the problems in my head at the time. Sometimes I feel as I am writing them, that they do not make sense… but reading over them days later… find that by writing things out almost in a rant… that I figure things out that i normally couldn’t have if I kept these thoughts and feelings locked in my mind. So I share them with you all. Be kind.
