Over the past few months, I have put great thought into my life. I wanted to find ways to slowly improve myself, because I know nothing will change over night… I simply want to make myself a better person. So I have decided to make a list on this blog in order to remind myself of want I want to improve.
First of all, I want to get into shape. I am aware that I am not over weight or fat… in fact for the first time in my life, I am relatively content with my body. However, I think it would be in my best interest to get in shape, perhaps lose some weight, and feel better about myself. I will start out small: go the gym a few times a week, try to do yoga at least four times a day, and simply trying to eat better.
Second, I want to earn a degree. I know that I always needed to earn a college degree, but up until now… even when I went to Monmouth, I did not know what I wanted to do with my life. Although, now I have decided that I want to be a high school English teacher (specifically, Creative Writing or British Literature). I love reading books, especially the classics, and enjoy writing… it is a way for me to release my pent-up emotions and feelings. So there is that… I already signed up for classes at Ocean County College, only two at the moment… but hopefully in a few years, I will be able to begin my career path.
Third, I desperately want to quit smoking. I started smoking October 2007; I am not sure, now, why I started to smoke, but I vaguely remember that I want to numb myself from the pain I was feeling, and seeing that my sister smoked and told me that it was calming… I figured I would try it. Soon, I was smoking a pack a day. Now, that over two years have passed, I figure that it would be good to stop now, before my addiction becomes worse than it is. I wanted to be free from this, but I am a stress and boredom smoker… and every time I quit, something has to happen where I tell myself I need a cigarette, but I really hope that I can stop soon.
Fourth, I really need to save money. I have many plans that I hope I can accomplish over the next few years, and in order to succeed in them… I need money. I want to: go back to school, pay off the debt to my mother, get a place of my own, and simply have money to splurge on things every once in a while. However, at the moment it is fairly hard to save any money I earn at work, seeing that I give my mother $140/week, in order to slowly chip away at my substantial debt. Hopefully, in the new year I will be making more, and possibly have a second job. We will see.
